Another great night at dance class. Every time I get out of there, I keep telling myself that I'll get involved in dance classes at the community college this fall. I hate that I've given something up that I love so much. And by then I'll have much smaller boobs, too, which will make it that much easier to dance. Yay.

As for other weightloss stuff... I'm not concentrating as much as I should. I've been distracted and while that's not a very good excuse, it is and excuse. I'm going to do better, though. I'm in an up period so I should be able to get myself in gear a little more and work out. Plus, I'd like to get myself in better shape before my surgery.

I haven't felt much like working out all week. I'm in a sort of slump, I guess. It sucks. I think it's partly because I'm going to be a girl soon and I always feel kinda low, energy-wise, around this time.

I'm meeting with a plastic surgeon next Thursday. Hopefully I'll get my surgery scheduled soon so I know when it's going to be. I'll work hard between now and when I have the surgery because afterwards I won't be able to work out until my surgeon gives me the okay. That could be a month or more. Granted, after the surgery, I'll be able to work out better. No back pain. Sports bras that fit and work properly. I can't wait.

Tomorrow I may do a quick work out. I'm supposed to go out to dinner with a friend of mine. Dinner and writing as a mini-celebration for an article of mine which has a good chance of being published. That's definitely cause for a mine-celebration.

I am just not feeling like working out today. Not sure why. I can't think of anything I want to do. It's definitely a blah day.

Dance class last night was great. I'm definitely thinking about going through the community college this coming fall after my surgery and taking classes through them. One night a week is just enough to make me want to dance a lot more so if I take classes through the community college, I'll have classes two to three nights a week. That's much better, in my opinion.

I will sort of exercise tonight. Or at least I'm counting it as such... I have to do some major cleaning and I may paint a bookshelf. I haven't decided about the shelf. I'm not really getting the energy up to do much tonight at all. But that may be because I just got home from work. I'll take an hour or so and then I'll be fine, I'm sure.

It's felt like it should be Friday all freaking day.

So, yes, it's been a while. I've got no excuses other than I haven't thought about posting here.

I have jazz class tonight. I'm definitely looking forward to it. It's the highlight of my week so I'm glad it's on Mondays. It helps get me going for the rest of the week.

I haven't lost anything lately. This is when I start having issues because I've been working at it but I haven't lost anything. I just have to keep myself on track and remember that I'm not neccessarily going to lose a lot all at once. I'm using/building muscle mass that I haven't had for quite some time so I may see slightly more weight on the scale than I have. I always hate that.

I have a doctor's appointment next Monday so he can give me a referral to a plastic surgeon. I wanted to get myself in for a consultation with the ps that day, too, but I don't think that the referral will go through that quickly. I'm trying to get a referral for a breast reduction that I'll hopefully have within the next couple of months. It shouldn't be too hard to get the insurance to cover it once my pcp gives me the referral.

So I'm off to jazz class. Yay!

My first jazz class was tonight. Boy am I motivated now. We'll see if it lasts through the week.

It's an intro to jazz class and it really looks like I'm the only one in there who's had any training at all. The instructor commented that she could tell I've trained before. Haha. Even through the fat she could tell. That's a good thing for me.

But I can tell that I've worked in ways that I haven't for a long time. The class is only once a week, which sucks, but what can you do? I had a good time, though. I forgot how much I missed dancing. Life has been so crazy over the past couple of years and I've been doing so much other stuff just to keep myself surviving on my own that I misplaced my love of dance. Writing has done a little to do that but I can have two loves, can't I?

So the goal for tomorrow is to come home from work and immediately head down to the apartment gym for some bike and/or elliptical time.

I've been doing well with my eating, though I did start hanging off the wagon a little this weekend. It's all good. I have to be careful, though. A friend of mine is having a chocolate party in a couple of weeks. I have to be good until then so I can have a nice treat.

Oh, the body hurts. In a very good way. =)

I worked out three times last week. It's better than I've done the whole month of December though, and that's pitiful.

But now I have a new goal and I think I can stick to exercising and eating better. Granted, I went to get pancakes tonight but (as bad as this is) I really didn't eat anything else today. So I won't stress about it too much.

Next week I'll do even better and go to the gym every day after work. Then the week after this I start going to dance class on Monday nights. I'm happy about them, even though I know I'll be the fattest person in the entire class. I'm okay with it. Really. It's an adult class and it's a bunch of beginners. I'm a much better dancer, even fat, than most anyone else going. I know that sounds slightly conceited, but it's true.

Here's to the coming week.

I've been trying to do well with my workouts. Last night I did a dance aerobic workout. Tonight I did one I videotaped off fitTV a while ago. I've lost 2.5lbs though. It may have something to do with a lack of food. I just don't feel like eating much. I have almost no appetite. I realize this isn't a good thing but I have been eating a little. Besides, this balances out those times where I want to eat everything I see. LOL.

Bellydancing tonight. I still feel yucky in regards to my tummy whenever I eat. I really should get that checked out but like I have time or money.

Getting ready for my dance class in January. I have to keep myself motivated. I've got so much on my mind at the moment (trying to get a new job!) so sometimes it's a little difficult.

I can do this.

I put in a resume for a new job this morning so I've been on edge all day long. Which means that I didn't eat much at all today because when I get really nervous about things I lose my appetite. Of course I didn't hear anything about said job and now I'm kinda hungry.

I did one of my bellydance videos because I couldn't get myself to do anything longer. Partly because of my nerves and partly because now that it gets darker earlier, it feels so much later. I don't like working out when it's so late. Of course I need to get over that because my dance class is at night.

I mentioned the swordfighting class I want to take to my friends and they're all loving it. I think we're all going to take the class together. I'm so excited. Swordfighting. I've always wanted to learn. And it'll be one more good thing I do for my body.

I got me a ticker! = )